Today I hid the pain behind a smile
I kept polite conversation
and laughter
As the Lightning Bolt of burning
Excruciation
Shot down my leg.
Hips on Fire
Slowed the time and kept
Full attention as I struggled to
Keep face.
Electric embers pulsing through my core
Testing my strength and tact.
The tears welled up in frustration
“not yet, not just yet” quiet lull to myself.
The screams of pain in my head, louder than any conversation
“Oh Dear God Stop It!! I can’t take anymore, Save Me!!”
But you will never know.
I will look at you, and calmly, albeit weakly, will simply say
“It’s just a bit of a bad day”.
No one wants to hear you’re being
Seared from the inside out.
standing in the secret 